This Post is dedicated to my dear high school friend: Connie. She shared this with me this week. . .
Open the gate of Worship and His Truth in prayer and enter in with me. . .We need each other. . .
Just show up and Jesus will move to the middle. There is always room for more in the Kingdom. love, twe
On a personal note: Stillness has been pressed into my life. I’d love to tell you I embrace it. Right? Wrong! I fight it, most every moment, I resist it with all my being. This does not feel like who I am. It is who I am in Christ. My theology is sound, but I have a divided heart. Of course I want to be with Him! But I also want to be in the kitchen making chicken enchiladas to welcome my kids home. I also want to be on a fun weekend with my pure heart sisters. I also, want to just spontaneously go somewhere for the weekend with my husband and just “Be” with him. To say these things are heart breaking, is to minimize the struggle I battle daily!!! There are no words to go there. . .
All that said, and so much more I did not say, stillness is working it’s transformation on me. My Blog is here as a legacy of love, I was too busy before to put into being. My Book is playing in my heart and head. I invest time in prayer and heart passion that I did not have the focus to move into His heavens. I take nothing, and I mean NOTHING for granted. I’ve learned to “Be” in a hug, learned to “Be” with a piece of artwork, learned to “Be” present in the petal of a flower, learned to “Be” in my husbands arms, learned to “Be” in a voice mail, learned to “Be” in a spoonful of chocolate ice cream, learned to “Be” comfortable in my bed, learned to “Be” immersed in the freedom of warm water therapy and swim for life in my Lord.
I am learning to “Be” with those that help me, learning to “Be” when there is a mess on the floor, learning to “Be” when someone does it their way not mine, learning to “Be” while I am waiting, learning to “Be” when I cannot help my daughter like my heart bleeds, learning to “Be” when I don’t have the energy for what I want with all of me to do, learning to “Be” when I cannot help where help is needed, learning to “Be” when I see all the things that need to be done and I’ll not ask one more thing, learning to “Be” when I see someone I love and the words will not fit on my “word board,” learning to “Be” when I don’t “see” answers to my prayers, learning to “Be” when my body screams NO and my heart cries out YES, YES, YES. . .
As with all of our visits. . .It’s not about the ALS with which the battle rages.
It is about learning to Be in our circumstance and know He is God.
Where are you pressed to just “Be”?
Welcome viewers in Sri Lanka. Be blessed and encouraged in our Lord 🙂