I read the Narnia Series, in sixth grade (read it again with my girls and yes, enjoyed it more each time we read the full series) and feel deeply, madly in love. I did not know as a child, what longing was growing in me. Aslan, mesmerized me. I wanted to be Lucy. I identified most with Lucy. My imagination played out a Lucy-likened heart in the woods of our neighborhood.
I began a search for Aslan. A sensitivity to where I might find Him. A longing to follow His tracks. A playful need to bury my face into His mane. A desperate need to fathered.
I’ve spent a life-time yearning to express a child-like love of Who is Mighty in the face of my fears, in the realtime of my relationships and in the Grace of His Goodness.
I hope you enjoyed Lucy’s voice, her facial expressions, and the careful way she navigates for Aslan to make Himself known to her.
We are all children of God. All of us, no matter how old we are, no matter our circumstances, no matter how “mature” our lives, the “child” in us enters in on every moment. Are you aware of the needs of your little boy or little girl? He or she speaks whether we give them a voice in our growth or not? Longing for security? Listening for love? Hoping for affirmation? Aching for encouragement? Restless for play? Needing nourishment? Delighting in wonder? Hiding in fear?
The older I get, the more painful of life circumstances, the more the Truth calls to the little girl in me. It calls my “little girl” out of fear and insecurities while prevailing on her to keep her sense of wonder, a future worth moving forward and coming into her own in God’s time.
The last time I watched this youtube, I was in a processing group and I thought I was healthy. I was able to enter into it fully. Tears, Chills and in love with the divine dynamic. I was tumbling in the forest with my giggles ruffling Aslan’s mane. Watching it again, today, was different. I felt a hint of the wonder and delight but I know the battle now. All too well know the battle. 24/7 battle.
The Truth is we are all living the battle dynamic: Either entering one, existing one or enduring one. The scene that struck me today was on the bridge where Lucy draws her knife and Aslan’s comes to her side and blows the enemy away with a roaring righteous rage. What do I do with that? I don’t know, yet. I just know, God is using it to speak
All of us have a Peter, Susan, Edmund, or Lucy at their best in us. It’s worth another read! I promise!