Monday’s Manna Moment: Beautiful Purpose: Susie Larson Part Three

How God Wants to Promote YOU:

Quotes by Susie Larson

“None of us are called to stay in the comfort zone.”

“Give God access to your story.”

“Call me out so I can live a life totally disproportionate to who I am.”

“What is done in Faith, Lasts.”


“Run” “Time to make hay/take more ground on the good days”

“Rest” “God I thought we were dancing/place of obscurity/refinement”

“Stand” “Hit at every turn/storms/put your flag down and stand.”

“Active Waiting” “Groaning deep/steward the land and look towards promise”

“The need does not dictate the call.”

“How much can He bless you before you make it about you?”

“You are not what you do, you are someone He loves.”


I’ve not read the book, but this so speaks to me. And these Seasons rotate as the earth moves, on God’s time. Part of the challenge for me has always been co-operating with His Seasonal changes!!! The weather changes I assimilate with grace. Why so, must I go kicking and screaming into “rest” or “stand?”

I’ve known the “run” and I’m grieving the loss of it. In fact, I’m often agonizingly angry, He took me out of it!! I’ve known and still know the challenging isolation of “rest.” Who said, “Be Still,” would not have growing pains? I’m in the stand, with a foot into active waiting. Every day is a battle to chose to put down my flag on His promises/His Joy/HisHope.

It’s not pretty, but it is life-giving.

Welcome Readers: Greece, France Malaysia! Blessings!

Roads That Cross: Reality X Expectations Part Two “Where’s My Letter?”

Sketch by Lyubov Malygina of  "Penning a Letter" by George Goodwin Kilburne 1871  Donetsk, Ukraine

Sketch by Lyubov Malygina of “Penning a Letter” by George Goodwin Kilburne 1871
Donetsk, Ukraine


Dearest Connie,

About ten years ago, I became aware that expectations were significant in relationships. I’m still learning about the importance of this concept for life in HIM.

It all started when I was very hurt and angry with Bucky. I had just had it and I had been learning that the primary posture of prayer was face down in the Bible: prostrate prayer. (Of course I thought it was kneeling.) I was crying out to God, threw myself on the ground, face down, on the girls pink, playroom carpet. Sobbing. (Okay, so I admit, I can be a bit dramatic at times, I’ve got a tender heart!) When I quieted long enough to hear anything other than my own pity party. . .I heard GOD say. . .

“What if this is his best? What if it doesn’t get any better than this? What are you gonna DO THEN?”I thought a while. I don’t think that had ever occurred to me! Oh God, help our ignorance in marriage!!!

Well, then, God, I will have to accept it as his best, and move on. I can’t expect more than he knows how to or is able to give. People can’t give beyond what is all they know.

It forever changed my perspective and I began understanding about other family members, and friends. . .

Most people do not set out thinking, “I’m gonna let this person down. I am going to personally sabotage every expectation they have, whether it is appropriate or not, and hurt them so they don’t ever want to be in a relationship with me anymore.”

As I watched myself, people in ministry and their woundings, much, not all, but much of their pain was from unmeet expectations. We, most often, are not even aware of the expectations we put on ourselves, others and God. We just know severe disappointment. We never think to link it to expectations.

Three Common expectations that set us up to loose ground,

in Kingdom relationships and the truth as I’ve experienced it.

(Expectation) I am a Christian, therefore God will not allow me to suffer.
Being a Christian does not make me an exception to worldly suffering.
The lesson is to expect at some point to understand the suffering of Jesus through my own pain.

(Expectation) Men and Women marry to complete themselves in each other and find happiness.
God created marriage to symbolize Jesus’ relationship with the Church.
Read the letters from Paul to the first churches, full of real people with issues. We are complete only in Jesus. (This process is finished when our earthly bodies die and go to heaven.) Our marriages are a training ground to learn to sacrifice, love and enable others. Why do we expect happiness when two selfish, bull- headed people marry? The lesson is to pursue 1 Corinthians 13.

(Expectation: This is my own personal albatross!) If I love and my intent is good, it will all turn out rosey.
If I offer or receive love, I can count on when, not if, that person will let me down or disappoint me. Efforts to love are always somewhat misunderstood because of the imperfection of our flesh!! (God gets the intent and invests it!!!) Love makes us vulnerable to hurt. The lesson is to love anyway. Love is the only thing that is eternal, why would we spend our time doing anything else?

So, it all comes down to laying our expectations at the cross. And doing that as often as an expectation is revealed.  A path will be worn shortly, from your pilgrimage there. Let them die there. It’s hard, partly because we cling to our expectations. They are linked to desires and dreams. We hold tightly because we falsely believe that is the source of our “life.”  We never get rid of them completely. Many are hidden and new ones create themselves over night. The best of life comes when we accept what God offers is enough . . .

Your grace is enough: 

2 Corinthians 12:9

New American Standard Bible (NASB)

And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast [a]about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me.

Dear Lord,
Help Connie and I see our expectations for what they are: hinderances to love and Kingdom building. Reveal to us what our expectations are in our marriage that minimize growth of our marriage relationships but also who we could be with others as well. We know it will be painful to allow our expectations die at the cross with Jesus. We cling to them because we believe met expectations bring life. That is a lie1 What truly brings life to love is as we release our expectations and recognize them, you give us what we need. We love you and want to expand our hearts to greater selfless love in your name.

In HIS LOVE and mine, your twe

Roads that Cross: Reality X Expectations, Part One

Life’s complicated. That’s clarity:  Complain… or Communion. ~ Ann Voskamp

The equation supposedly goes like this:  if your reality is greater than your expectations, then you’re happy. ~ Ann Voskamp

As for expectations — your expectations have a direct correlation on your irritations. The higher your expectations, the greater your irritations. ~ Ann Voskamp

Go to the following, Ann Voskamp link and let it sink in. Not just wash over you like a wave, swim in it. Take a long, luxurious swim and then come back and share thoughts that lead to an intimate letter to a friend.

With Ann Voskamps Inspiration:

Have you been married long enough for real, imperfect love to grow hot with unmet expectations? And the intense, glowing embers cool and you are desperate in prayer? Reality and expectations cross, that’s a painful point that called me to pivot my posture after focused prayer.

Before you read the recent letter I wrote a dear friend, we’ve a bit of prep work to do: Years ago, now, when I finally released my dear husband from being my god into freedom to be husband. My prior expectations had been super-human. It took quite the pivot to turn my expectations supernatural. Milky language (Hebrews 5:13) we can all digest? Turn from husband for ALL to God for ALL and lift the burden to enjoy the giftings of marriage to this incredible man.

Let’s EXPERIENCE our expectations smoother the life that the gifts of marriage, friendship and parenting hold for us. Now take a deep, Kingdom breath, and imagine the “what if” when we lift the heavy, wet blanket of expectations off those we love, and turn our hearts toward heaven. The reality of heaven: messy faith, messy hope and messy love. . .

And so my friend said three of the most empowered words in a Kingdom Conversation. . . . “Tell Me More” (and when I did not write her soon enough, her precious prompt in text message, “Where’s my letter?”)

Part Two, “Where’s my letter?” Tomorrow 🙂

Eye Candy for the Heart, I

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Although I call this eye candy for fun, our eyes NEED to feast on things good for our hearts. What we feed our eyes is mostly junk unless we direct them. Beauty, shapes, lines, colors, movement all influence how we perceive God’s world. What does our awareness pick up on and what do we miss?

I’ve always been very visual about my world. Truth is our eyes need God’a best to fuel our sacred imaginations, feed our delight in His creations and to fight shadows and dark places. It’s pure play for me to bring you some of my favorite Pinterest Pics. It lifts my spirits and blesses me with His goodness.

My hope is it will bless you. . .If a picture could paint a thousand words, then what are they? Enjoy!

 Who knows where God may take us. . .

Let’s learn to play with God’s goodness with our eyes and enrich our heart life!!!

Liquid Leaves


Leaf and Twig has the eyes and the quick snap of the camera to capture beauty. Thank you for the gracious permission for our Blogs to be many parts of one Body to give God the Glory.

Reflection, is in part communion. How God delights in reflection: waters, windows, photographs (dimly), words, artistic creations (Pieta’), paintings, it goes on and on. . .

We are created to be the Master Reflection of our God (I’m preaching to self, I feel most moments like a broken refraction of myself). Reflections: Search for them, Delight in Them, Be the Best Reflection in the Moment of Your Lord. I want Him to have the last Word 🙂 Amen

God LOVES Beginnings!!!

Genesis 1:27

New American Standard Bible (NASB)

27 God created man in His own image, in the image of God He created him; male and female He created them.

Genesis 1:27

The Message (MSG)

26-28 God spoke: “Let us make human beings in our image, make them
        reflecting our nature
    So they can be responsible for the fish in the sea,
        the birds in the air, the cattle,
    And, yes, Earth itself,
        and every animal that moves on the face of Earth.”
    God created human beings;
        he created them godlike,
    Reflecting God’s nature.
        He created them male and female.
    God blessed them:
        “Prosper! Reproduce! Fill Earth! Take charge!
    Be responsible for fish in the sea and birds in the air,
        for every living thing that moves on the face of Earth.

leaf and twig

The pond and wind
to turn the leaves to liquid.

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“My Reason to Be Brave”?

Lyrics to Brave

I like to write the lyrics out for you, so you see the poetic prisms paper placed

Wake up, wake up the sun cannot wait for long
Reach out, reach out before it fades away
*You will find the warmth when you surrender
*Smile into the fear and let it play

*You wanna run away, run away
*And you say that it can’t be so
You wanna look away, look away
But you stay cause its all so close
*When you stand up and hold out your hand
*In the face of what I don’t understand
*My reason to be brave!

Hold on, hold on so strong
Time just carries on
All that you thought is wrong is pure again
*You can’t hide forever from the thunder
*Look into the storm and feel the rain

You wanna run away, run away
And you say that it can’t be so
You wanna look away, look away
But you stay cause its all so close
When you stand up and hold out your hand
In the face of what I don’t understand
My reason to be brave!
Oh, oh, oh

GROBAN, JOSH / SALTER, THOMAS / KREVIAZUK, CHANTAL  Read more: Josh Groban – Brave Lyrics | MetroLyrics

Good Morning. If you’ve followed me long enough, you know I have a strong visceral response to certain  music. A couple of dear friends, family and I went to one of those “theater concerts” recently for Josh Groban. He was larger than life. He is classically trained, so his music resonates deeply with 10 years of playing the violin for me. I melt into the perfect pitch of every note and the passion in the pauses.

I sat there in my wheel chair, literally shaking. I felt like he was singing it to me. You will see some of the lyrics are in bold, those are the poetic strikes at my heart. This post is like laying my heart out on the paper. I don’t mind telling you the the words are swimming off the page with the liquid of dry tears  that hold every word I write is wet with my witness to pain.

There is never a day that I don’t want to run away. Intense pain will do that to you, it gets so hot, you wanna run away and say it can’t be so. . . Josh talks about in the face of what he does not understand. . .his reason to be brave.

I don’t comprehend how I endure this, even in my worst moments, tears drowning my vision and legs trembling with fear and angst. The only response I have to the reason I am to be brave is. . . LOVE. I’ve never known a grip on me this tight. It refuses to give up and let me run away. It’s relentless. Even when I struggle to get lose, I’m held here. It’s the grip of that love that is my reason to be brave. It’s the grip of the love I have for my husband and my four daughters that is cinched tight in a passion for life that intensifies every day. It’s that grip of love that is my reason to be brave.

The love, in my reason to be brave, is captured closely in Josh’s voice, passion and lyrics in this song, I so love, “Brave.” Thank you for sharing this song with me.

New American Standard Bible 
And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7