Dear Family and Friends:

I can’t help but feel mixed emotions here.  I would never choose to leave you and it breaks my heart, yet I know all my dreams are fulfilled in my heavenly home with Jesus and C.S. Lewis.  I can finally have all the deep conversations I want without wearing any of you down.  LOL

I cannot write letters to all of you, but I want to speak life to each of you.  You have, truly, loved me well.  As hard as this challenge has been, I have experienced more of God’s intimate love through this valley than I ever would have known on the mountain top of this life.  Traveling this with you has indeed been a rich blessing; As I write this, I’m truly grateful.  Bucky, Hope, Ashlyn, Megan and Kathleen stepped up in my need, all of you are my heroes.  Family:  ALL of you, I could not have done a day of this without each of you.  Friends:  You anchored me in the land of the living.

“I would have despaired unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.”  Psalm 27:13

Thank you for honoring the girl beneath the disease.  Thank you for supporting my journey home with your prayers and your generous presence.  Each of you, and I mean this with all my heart, made a Kingdom of difference in my life, in health and in sickness.

Today is for tears, but joy comes in the morning.  I remain part of the Kingdom dynamics in your days.  We’ve much Kingdom Play to engage, our journey together has just begun….I love you more,

12 thoughts on “Dear Family and Friends:

  1. My friend: I am forever grateful, forever touched, forever blessed, forever better!!

    Much love to Mr. Bucky and the girls and to each one who showed your love to me 🙂

    With love, always, always, always,
    Arlys D.

  2. My life is forever changed because your precious family let me be a part of your pain and struggles. Alistair Begg says that a true friend doubles joys and halves burdens. Sharing tears and laughter in your home is forever etched on my heart and soul. Your mom taught me how to make others feel special with a touch, text, note, or simply a sweet gaze. Of course, I now know that Christian Dior is the best mascara! Caroline has benefited from that one,too. Even when I was loving her, she by her nature loved me better. With all her might, she with the help of Tobii (which we know didn’t always cooperate) wrote me a note of encouragement with something she knew I would treasure. I watched how she gazed with such determination and concentration at each letter to write this paragraph. I burst into tears, seeing her effort and she closed her eyes and played a song. I quietly prayed for your family and inhaled the moment. We exchanged deep hugs. Your mother’s qualities of loving others, making memories, all in the details, kindness, joy, happies, laughter, celebration, grace just to name a few is alive in you Hope, Ashlyn, Megan, and Kathleen. Her funeral was a beautiful celebration of her full life lived well devoted to Her Father, her family, and friends. She made lots of memories with each of you. You all did an amazing job of planning and executing all the details. Bucky, you have lived out the words commitment, love, and dedication. I deeply thank you for trusting me to care for your mom/wife. Blessings keep flowing from it. ALS is an ugly disease, but your family turned ashes into beauty with how you loved each other and trusted the Lord. Praying constantly for all of you and know that I am always available. All of you are shining stars! Tracey, I am overwhelmed with love and gratitude. Until I see you again, sweet friend. I love all of you! Kris Ann

  3. In 2002 when my mother passed away, Brother Eldon, one of my teachers at Catholic High, passed me a note which still sits by my desk today. I would like to modify it for Tracey.

    We seem to give Tracey back to You, Lord, Who gave her to us.
    And yet, as you did not lose her in giving, so we do not lose her by
    her return. Life is eternal, and love is immortal, and death is only a
    horizon, which is nothing except the limit of our sight. Lift us up,
    Lord, that we may know ourselves to be nearer our loved ones who
    are with You. Amen.

  4. Tracey,
    You have made a remarkable journey and inspiration to so many.

    God welcomes you into his eternal Kingdom.

    Blessings & peace be with you now!
    Larry & Gail

  5. Bucky, Hope, Ashlyn, Megan and Kathleen, Your precious wife and Mother was such a gracious lady. I will always
    remember her kind, sweet and humble spirit. Her counsel was always given with our Savior in mind. I will continue to pray for all of you. Her letter is just her love note to all of us. She had such a excellent way to express her feelings and thoughts.

  6. When I saw this post I knew that she had written something special – I didn’t know your Mom – only enough to say hello in passing but somehow all the girls and my kids missed each other in grades so never got to hang around her. But she ministered to me and so so many thru this illness with her blog and her spirit as she completed the journey God had for her. It was not a journey I or anyone would have chosen but God uses us and brings glory to Him but also lets some share in that glory and that is what I saw for Tracey. Nothing grand is ever easy but I want to thank you Bucky and all the girls for sharing your wife and Mom in giving her life here to encourage and inspire so many! Praying for all – Christie Myers

  7. Tracey,
    Even though you have gone to be with our Beloved, you are still speaking His love to the hundreds who cared for you. You were so loved by so many, as you touched everyone who knew you. The incredible celebration of your life was just the beginning of your total and complete happiness as you are whole again. How I would have loved to hear the first words that your mom and dad said to you as they welcomed you home! What a joyous reunion that must have been!!
    Never have I seen such an outpouring of love for anyone as your family and precious Love Birds exhibited. Bucky was an amazing husband and role model to all who know him. The girls carried themselves with strength and grace through this most difficult time. Toby and I were so proud of all of them— and of you as you passed with such grace. We are just a phone call away, and are here for all of you as you take this unknown journey without your precious rock to guide you. God will continue to hold you in His hand, and show you the way.
    Love and blessings to all of you.
    Char Mama

  8. My Dearest, I have no words that can express the loss I feel. You are most precious to me. I am relieved that your struggle is over and that you are now with our Lord. I cherish our memories and feel so blessed to have Bucky, Hope, Ashlyn, Megan and Kathleen. You are with me always, in my heart. Love, Lu

  9. I will always love you my beautiful wife. I see, with this blog entry, that Jesus gave you a room with a computer- How fitting. You will shine from the sky because of your wisdom and shine like stars forever for leading so many to righteousness in Jesus Christ. I promise I will take care of our precious daughters, Hope, Ashlyn, Megan and Kathleen. Thank you for making me a better person……..Bucky, your humbled husband

  10. Dear Tracey, Your passing leaves such a hole in my heart. I look forward to the day we will dance with joy in the Savior’s Presence. I can’t wait to hear your voice again.

  11. Bucky, Hope, Ashlyn, Megan and Kathleen: God’s mercy, grace and love was brightly displayed through each one of you this past week as we all started a new and difficult journey together without your precious wife and mother. Remember all of the Love Birds are just a text away! Praying without ceasing for each one of you! Love Tracy B.

  12. They say to live your life so that your funeral is packed. Well, dear Tracey, you accomplished that and so much more. You lived your earthly life to the fullest and entered the gates on heaven with the love, respect, and admiration of so many. I know you have already made your Heavenly place your home.

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