The Way You Love Me

“The Way You Love Me” by Anthony Evans, Jr.

This heart breaks slowly
Tell me what are you doing to me
When I prayed do what it takes
*I didn’t know I’d lose everything
*Everything that meant anything to me is gone
How could something so right go so wrong
*It is the hurt that breaks me
*And it’s the pain that pulls me to my knees
*And the tears they’ve changed me
Til what I couldn’t see
*Becomes so clear to me
This is the way
*The way that you love me
My way destroyed me
I couldn’t see I was my worst enemy
So you took away til my soul ached
And I knew that it was no mistake
That everything that meant anything to me was gone
*Now something right has to come from this wrong
*It is the hurt that breaks me
*And it’s the pain that pulls me to my knees
*And the tears they’ve changed me
Til what I couldn’t see
*Becomes so clear to me
This is the way
*The way that you love me
You loved me so much that you let me
*You let me fall knowing that I would loose it all and hear your call
You love me so much that you chase me
*When I ran away you captured me by letting me run to the end of myself
To the end of myself and this is way you love

*LYRICS I RELATE TO.

This song hits so close to “home” it hurts to share it with you.  I know God did NOT give me ALS.   The way He loves me is SO HARD to discern because the love is so tangled with the pain.  What gives me moments of clarity are the simple things I used to take for granted:  “mom”, sunshine on my shoulders, a full laugh, snuggling with my husband even when I am mad at him, holding a pen, and the gift of a hug.  This is the way He loves me:  the magic momentum of the Body of Christ, you continue to gift me with comments even though I can’t respond, every breath I take… Life in the way He loves me is bleeding me into the sacrifice of thanksgiving.  I loveth thee, TWE